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when i even start to think about this, or you or telling you..my stomach starts turning into knots. it doesnt hurt, really. i like it. when we first met, i think we both didnt expect to like eachother so much. because i wanted to change my life at that point and its just funny how some things work. i wanted to leave my past and my home behind and start over..a new adventure in a place that was fun and exciting. the funny thing about it, is how my life is full of silly things that fall into place. the littlest things. ill see something on tv, then later ill see something on the street and smile because i know that those two things i saw were connected in some way. before i met you, i had heard you name and saw you around but never have i ever thought about us before. untill we met, you touched me everything felt right. everything finally felt normal. i felt like my whole past had dissapeared and there was no more sad depressed little destinee. and her broken past and un succesful relationships and failed friendships and bad habits. all of it was gone. sometimes i think it was fate working, and maybe it was. maybe god has a set out plan for me. all i know is, that night changed my life. all from one little text message. one little picture mail. one little hug, to conversation. to giggling, staying up late, dreaming, writing about you..all of it seems to tie into place. the reason we met is unthinkable, it just happend. and its made us stronger and happier. the moment i met you, i felt like i could fall for you. that one little connection made me think "hey, i cant let this go to waste." ...i thought he cant be like any other connecticut boy..he cant walk all over me and treat me like i was nothing. he doesnt seem like that. not at all. and sometimes i get this gut feelings where i predict the future, and i was right. because since then, i havent felt like that. i havent felt an ounce of sadness over you. all i feel is happiness, warmth, and love in my heart. and thats all i ever want to feel. and i feel so great just sighing with relief day by day. because its not too good to be true. true love does exsist..it just takes a little time and effort to find it. they dont say find the right 20 do they? they say find the right one. and when you do, grab a hold of it because you dont know if its going to slip away. im not saying i found true love, im just saying i may have found it. so im going to hold onto it. hes unlike anything i have ever wanted, and im happy for that. hes the nice guy and thats something ive needed for a long time and im finally realizing that now. its so wonderful not to feel like your nothing anymore. because i am something, and he brings it out in me. i am just so happy and one stupid chick flick made me realize how much i adore this fellow. i cant wait to see him again. oh god, i cant wait =)